my 4th miserable day

this is the 4th day of my miserable life hai...first day i feel lyk dying after i recieved a msg jus a day b4 i was so heartbroke i feel as though i have been defeated time pass too slow from me as though the pain nvr fade ..i went into self despair as time pass so slow around me i started feeling lost and i ltr absoutely lost interet in whatever i do...i was so angry and i scolded her for cheating me giving me false hope the worst thing is i told her i will forget her and our happy moments...after i watch haru haru mmv and cried...i soon felt to sleep at around 5.07 my phone ring i tot is some pranksters about merry chrustmaz i ignore and when to sleep afteri woke up at 9 the first msg i saw is she telling me she is sorry she did not want this to happen she would not forget me and even wished me merry christmas..i was shocked i knock my head on the wall after isms her wad i said was harsh words but i noe she is hurt deep inside i cried for her i noe wad i said have hurt her i did not mean it i am sorry i would do anything for ur return i noe it hurt u in everyway ): i`m sorry i am jus an idiot